Thing Called Love

We're lazing in a meadow
On a lovely spring day
Beautiful butterflies fluttering around us
Landing softly where we lay.
The trees rustling behind us
As the birds sing us a song
A creek with a soft trickle
That runs so far and long.
The wind is soft and subtle
but it blows the long green grass
Above us, a bright blue sky
That melts our awe-struck hearts.
Our senses are alert
To every sight, smell and sound
But nothing is more wondrous
Than what we truly found.
I look at you and smile
You smile right back at me
Because we aren't in a meadow
We're in a thing called love, you see.

For Mum <3

Secret Admirer

bound by blood

we share a connection

my little sister

with sibling tension

take my hand

i will guide you through life

hold your head up

and take away your strife

when your down

i'll wipe away your tears

protect your wellbeing

and destroy your fears

don't feel alone

you're always in my heart

i'm taking this journey with you

even when we're apart

i'm your secret admirer

you keep me going

you're my inspiration

without even knowing.

please follow me

i'll follow you too

you'll be my sunshine

and i'll be your hero

Devil In Disguise

The devil in disguise
you weren't sent from the skies
you walked the broad horizon
and filled my world with your horrid lies.

Selfishness is all you knew
Your blood sucking ways bled me dry
left me nothing but an empty shell
beyond introverted, beyond shy.

You locked away the best parts of me
and let loose the ugly truths
a hideous pattern of self destruction
your ever growing demon fruits.

Your darkness became all i knew
consuming every happy thought
to hide away and lie to myself
became all i ever sought.

Your dark whispers in my ear
my mercy at your feet
like a fast approaching thunder storm
you hit hard and fast and made me weep.

Pushing away those who wanted to help
and those willing to understand
accepting feelings of loneliness and despair
i crumbled at your evil command.

It was time for you to go
but your grasp was tighter than ever
I tried so hard to break free
But your power was one that i could not sever.

Desperate and losing faith
suffering some kind of insanity
with your demon like spirit inside my head
I was losing grip with humanity.

Left with no ounce of self control
taking everything for granted
brainwashed by something alien
anything destructive you had planted.

But when you took the things i loved
when you left me naked on the floor
there's one thing you didn't count on
a tiny ounce of will, buried deep within my core.

Picking myself up, and brushing myself off
standing tall with my head held high
I gathered up all remaining strength
I sent you packing, i broke the tie.

The pain you caused me
The desperation you made me feel
Never again will you be allowed to consume me
or take away all that i know is real.

I am not the girl i used to be
the one you selfishly took away
her innocent mind was never for you
And be sure, one day you will pay.

A Quick Introduction.

Hi, my name is Anna. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and although this does not define me, it is a big part of my life right now. I recently discovered that writing helps me gain a better understanding of myself and what goes on inside my mind, while clearing my head by getting things off my chest. So, through the use of poems, I am attempting to 'empty' my mind of unwanted thoughts and hopefully discover less destructive ones to replace them with at the same time. Two birds with one stone.
Although I'm not the best writer, the idea of putting my poems into a blog is mainly because I don't want them sitting around in a folder on my laptop anymore. They were written for a reason and I thought that by sharing them with the 'cyber world' I might be able to reach a few people; whether that be by inspiring them to write or just letting them know that they aren't alone in this seemingly endless battle for happiness.
Thank you for taking the time to read my verbal diarrhea. Your thoughts and feedback are very welcome :-)